However, I do believe in always bettering yourself and striving for something more from life and yourself. So this year I made a list of things I would like to work on for myself and get control of in 2012. (yeah, I know, sounds a lot like a resolution, right? well, it's not. it's just a list/set of goals to become a better person and there's no pressure if i don't succeed because becoming a better person is a LIFE process people...so back off)
The list is in no particular order, as I just wrote down ideas as they came to me, so I will type my list in the order I wrote it:
- more organized ~ this is huge for me because I am an extremely busy person with a full-time job and literally three part-time jobs. B helps a ton and is saint-like.
- less anxious ~ also important to me because I am a very anxious person...could it because because I work 4 jobs, plus play on the church worship team, plus help out with youth group? Anyway, this is really important to me because I feel like anxiety runs in my family and it's a character trait I don't want to pass onto my children. I want them to be able to see how to handle life and all it throws at them. I also don't want to be an anxious, psycho pregnant woman. I think it would be bad news for B and the baby. disclaimer: i am not pregnant. there has been some confusion.
- find more about my passions & develop them ~ I'm 24 and don't know what I want to do with my life. No surprise there, right? I mean, who does?! I have a college degree in photography and graphic design, but I want to take that to the next level. I've had this fire raging inside me for something more and I don't know what that is or how to develop it. Thus, 2012 goal.
*focus less on me & more on B ~ (that's literally how I wrote that one) Brian is my personal cheerleader and supports me in everything I do...I mean everything, people. Because he's so good to me, I constantly find myself in a state of not being good enough to him. I know I shouldn't be treating him like he treats me and comparing my support for him from his support for me, so this year I intend to learn how to support him how he needs to be supported. Sound confusing? Too bad. It makes sense in my brain.
- read more ~ books. I love books (we have two bookcases full of books) and I love reading. It comes from my mom. She was ALWAYS reading when we were growing up (which would also lead to her using complex words that our tiny brains couldn't understand. therefore we learned fast how to use context clues to determine a word's meaning). Although I love books and love reading, I haven't done it in a looooong time. I need to make time.
- simplify ~ ok, this one I have circled on my list, but I can't do that in blogger, so just imagine I circled the word "simplify". We already have a pile of stuff to put on a rummage sale in May that we're having with our friends. Not only do I want to simplify the junk we have, but I want to simplify our lives and minds. This will prove to be the hardest goal.
I know most of you don't care about these, but it feels like more of a commitment to bettering myself when I type them out for the world to see.
On a side note (because I feel bad not giving you a photo), B built a cajon (a wooden box drum that even has a snare head inside) and I designed this little "logo" for him to burn into the wood on the bottom right corner. I included a YouTube video below for you to see what a cajon sounds like and how to play. One of us will do a blog post on the cajon later.
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